2008-02-25 Farewell Fraewell, 猪样的年华 ！ Farewell , 御宅的周末 !  Farewell , 空荡荡的闲散无稽 ! Farewell ， 南边的舒适 ! Welcome , 被操练压抑的日子 ~   09:53:50 | comments 0 | Log Emo blah

2007-12-26 Bad Reputation - Freedy Johnston I know I got a bad reputation and it isn't just talk, talk, talk If I could only give you everything You know I haven't got I couldn't have one conversation If it wasn't for the lies, lies, lies And still I ought to tell you everything 'till I close my eyes Suddenly I'm on the street Seven years disappear below my feet Been breaking down Do you want me now? Do you want me now? Suddenly I'm down in Herald's Square Looking in the crowd, your face is everywhere Been turning around Do you want me now? Do you want me now? Don't try to be an inspiriation Just wasting your time, time, time You know about the best I'll ever be See it in your eyes I know I got a bad reputation and it isn't just talk, talk, talk If I could only give you everything You know I haven't got Suddenly I'm on the street Seven years disappear below my feet Been breaking down Do you want me now? Do you want me now? Suddenly I'm in another place Looking in the crowd I think I see your face Been turning around Do you want me now? Do you want me now? (Down, Down, down) Do you want me now? Do you want me now? (Down, Down, down) Do you want me now? Do you want me now? (Down, Down, down) Don't you think I've heard the talk? Nobody's going to tell me who to love Been breaking down Do you want me now? Do you want me now? Suddenly I'm down in Herald's Square Looking in the crowd, your face is everywhere Just turning around Do you want me now? Do you want me now? Been breaking down Do you want me now? Do you want me now? I'm just breaking down, down, down, down Been breaking down, down, down Been breaking down, down, down   http://floatingaway.blogs.com/weblog/files/freedy_johnston_bad_reputation.mp3 20:57:27 | comments 0 | LyricS Song travelog

2007-11-26 目前ＧＴ的三个歪用 1，嵌套/接替 MSN 　　公司封网，用不了msn，前几天找到个psi，jabber出的，可以把msn的好友导入到GT里，即在Gtalk里和对端的msn好友聊， 呵呵；--原本也能添加个关联QQ的服务器导入QQ友邻的，那个好心的服务器大约近来被腾讯告了，至少不再公开了。GT的语音、文件还没试过，只觉得不能 分组甚是遗憾。 注：这里gt是通过跟msn相连的中间服务器和msn勾搭起来的，你导入后同时开GT（或打开gmail页面）和msn会认为重复登录，踢出一个 　　 2，作Rss接收阅读工具 　　昨日想到GT能不能嵌入Greader呢？ 呵呵，搜了下，于是有了anothr@gmail.com这个好心的机器人，刚搜到豆瓣有哪吒的组，http://www.douban.com/group/Anothr/ 几位大头在那里、在一年前闲话，呼呼 ~ 　　 3，Gtalk群 　　可以添加饭否机器人好友fanfou006@gmail.com，如果你的几个聊友也玩饭否的话，呵呵 ；呃，其实要是msn有群的话，导入到Gtalk里也是照用的 　　 　　 近来的签名是Google the God , Jabber the Great ! : ~ 22:17:00 | comments 0 | cook tek Chef

2007-09-22 今日流水 凌晨3点多困觉，临睡又卓越下了个单子。 9点起，洗漱磨蹭蹲点泡网到11点左右出门，右安门庆丰包子铺两个包子一碗皮蛋瘦肉粥，骑车北上，北京银行打印医保折子，对面工行办了个新卡，再北上牛街，邮局注销了04年的折子和卡。再折菜市口去状胜，途中看到一两个骑车的法源寺僧侣。存车，去北翼的中银证券，周末没开。信步出来，北行十几分钟，就是和西单隔街相对的时代广场，扶梯而下，买片，刚好有12:50的《太阳照常升起》即刻开演，座位稍有些偏了，疏疏落落的小厅坐了二十来人。 《太阳》印象深的是歌曲音乐、背景色彩、情节意趣和流畅旋转的镜头。魔幻色彩，奇异的主观印象派怀旧故事，虽然房祖名的台式飘忽尾音略显不谐，整体看纯净呆傻方面是适中的——以往房的影片形象天真有些过头，反而不美。结尾问题是：黄秋生是阿辽沙即房祖名的父亲么？（不是吧，一个音乐教师、一个大兵哥）。 他悬梁的原因是因为他姓梁和对枪带有怪癖么？ （为甚么 ？ 为甚么 ！） 出来寻了车子回家，吃了驴肉、豆丝和啤酒，就到隔壁小发屋剃头。我说带黑发茬的光头就成，小伙子说“卡尺？”，原来推子上专门有可以卡上的定头发长度的装置，我要了个9毫米的；小师傅秀气和蔼，随口问：怎么想剔光呢？ 我嚅嗫哼哼下，随口答：刚出门见到几个和尚（真让人羡慕啊，穿着灰布长袍和草鞋）。剔个大概，小伙子情不自禁（我宁愿加上这四个字：）赞叹：这就是9毫米卡尺的标准头啊，以后就9毫米吧；短了受凉，长了（还有12毫米的）显不出卡尺的齐整来 ~ 　　 回来洗浴烧水拖地，等电话约好的书漂来 . ..   17:16:42 | comments 1 | log lazy blah Movie travelog

2007-09-15 not going any where -- keren ann This is why I always wonder I'm a pond full of regrets I always try to not remember rather than forget This is why I always whisper When vagabonds are passing by I tend to keep myself away from their goodbyes Tide will rise and fall along the bay and I'm not going anywhere I'm not going anywhere People come and go and walk away but I'm not going anywhere I'm not going anywhere This is why I always whisper I'm a river with a spell I like to hear but not to listen, I like to say but not to tell This is why I always wonder There's nothing new under the sun I won't go anywhere so give my love to everyone Tide will rise and fall along the bay and I'm not going anywhere I'm not going anywhere People come and go and walk away but I'm not going anywhere I'm not going anywhere Tide will rise and fall along the bay and I'm not going anywhere I'm not going anywhere they come and go and walk away but I'm not going anywhere I'm not going anywhere they come and go and walk away but I'm not going anywhere I'm not going anywhere   07:27:50 | comments 1 | Song lazy LyricS

2007-09-06 鼓励下文艺倾向 网还没开，等下家的消息，忍着不下单子败当当的书   一早６点多起来排毒，看《打眼》 ，Ｍａｘｗｅｌｌ，沙发，Ｄｖｏｒａｋ，忍不住翻出笔记本随便记几行字，钢笔还在，该买墨水了   还好吧，希望能多坚持几天没网的日子，希望晚饭的啤酒逐渐退出餐桌，希望工作的事能顺利圆满   哦，刚一路想的，评鉴一个人学问好坏：    三个权值：１，读书多、阅历丰富段子多；２，写书多，笔杆子扎实，废话也能漂亮的说；３，思想智慧、独特、内洽、深刻，有见地和境界，人即是书。   如果分这三块瓜？或者举出几个典型的例子对照下？　呵呵   09:06:25 | comments 0 | Log thought lazy

2007-08-17 Adrenaline You don’t feel the pain Too much is not enough nobody said this stuff makes any sense we're hooked again The point of no return see how the buildings burn light up the night such a pretty sight Adrenaline keeps me in the game Adrenaline that you don’t even feel the pain wilder than your wildest dreams when you're going to extremes it takes Adrenaline You don’t feel the pain Sail through an empty night its only you and I who understand there is no plan Get closer to the thrill only time can kill its in your eyes their so alive Adrenaline keeps me in the game Adrenaline that you don’t even feel the pain wilder than your wildest dreams when you're going to extremes it takes Adrenaline one third the speed of sound everything slows you down all the colors that surround are bleeding to the wall all the things you really need just wait to find the speed then you will achieve escape velocity Too much is not enough nobody gave it up I'm not the kind to lay down and die Adrenaline keeps me in the game Adrenaline that you don’t even feel the pain wilder than your wildest dreams when your going to extremes it takes adrenaline Adrenaline screaming out your name Adrenaline that you don’t even feel the pain wilder than your wildest dreams when you're going to extremes you taste Adrenaline Adrenaline Adrenaline Adrenaline Adrenaline Adrenaline You don’t even feel pain You don’t even feel pain Cause I'm going to extremes there’s nothing in between you don’t even feel pain you don’t even feel pain I'm going to extremes You don’t feel the pain I'm going to extremes There’s nothing in between There’s nothing in between I'm going to extremes I'm going to extremes There’s nothing in between You don’t even feel pain feel the pain, feel the pain, feel the pain you don’t even feel pain I'm going to extremes you don’t even feel pain feel the pain     17:22:39 | comments 0 | Log LyricS Song lazy

2007-08-09 依然 不知为何，这两天有些想哭，要发情的季节 刚酒，聊说一通；上楼时又有些冲动，依然想作自在散漫而土顽颟顸的自己： 依然不想穿白衬衫束在腰带里，人看着精神了，我不爽 依然不要买西装、不要打领带，平常不穿内裤，我自在为王，不格式化自己 依然不要香水、不要劳什子的唇膏， 呵呵，你呀作gay也别作小受 依然不想太委屈自己、为了女人，除非你先入为主的爱了，自寻折磨 依然温和可欺，宁让不争；区区百年，红尘三丈，哪里不是自家歇处 ？ 希望更虔诚些、更沉稳些、更笃定些、更圆通些，走路用些力气，做事多投入些 ...   21:15:59 | comments 1 | Emo blah thought Log

2007-08-06 陪君醉笑三千场 - 南合文斗 #说忘记却时常想起 你给的美丽刺痛我心底 每一次从梦中惊醒 沉默地哭泣 放肆地想你 如果我们的故事 已写到了结局 如果你注定要放手 我情愿笑着离去 不如就这样 掩藏起悲伤 陪君醉笑三千场 既然是这样 说好要坚强 醉笑三千场 不诉离伤# 不如就这样 掩藏起悲伤 陪君醉笑三千场 既然是这样 说好要坚强 醉笑三千场 不诉离伤 你一定记得 我微笑的模样 陪君醉笑三千场 你一定记得 最快乐的时光 醉笑三千场 不诉离伤！ 16:35:33 | comments 0 | LyricS Song Emo someday

2007-07-31 这几天流水 手机的烦恼：修了下，即恢复了2003SE。马上备了rom，这两天整的像样子了，声音的问题依然，解决办法是习惯耳机或昨晚刚调好的蓝牙耳机，呵呵   搬屋：搬到了隔壁的大间，为了保持空旷的舒服，反而有些东西不知所措了。有了阳台好，风来风往，昨夜大雨，风生水起的，开着阳台的窗户，穿堂风很爽   淘宝的绑定问题还没解决，打了客服电话，怀疑真是淘宝丢了最初的帐户，现在用的淘宝和支付宝尽管用一个邮箱，愣是从淘宝登不进支付宝，考虑再注一支付宝帐户   工作：没啥人了，呵呵，接了几个电话，还没准普，尽量这个月底吧，但愿交接顺利   PP：昨天下班无聊，自拍几张吓人，嘿嘿 ~ 07:58:35 | comments 0 | blah lazy log

2007-07-21 洒家没有加班的习惯 !! 何况还没加班费一说；何况丫的老大不出面闷头让我们义务在工地干体力活! 　　 昨晚吃酒，末了分手，被一句话赚到了今天的工地加班 　　 是琐碎而枯燥而不熟悉的低技术含量体力活，布线查对之类的；刚整完两层，作为组织的另一部门同事苦着脸说明天再来继续的意思，我对了句：抱歉，明天有事；这个活儿也确实不熟悉，帮不上啥忙。渠忙赞誉某，洒家对曰：要不您找叉肿说罢，让他明天联系我，我跟他解释 　　 叉肿即老大，这两年老人赶尽，上周末临下班半逼着洒家签了合同，这两天正考虑找时机跟他说长钱的事；我若不提，便宜死他，他的抠功，估计也不会让我多舒服顺心，nnd，下周即见分晓 ~ 　　 core， 真把爷们当牛马啦 ?? 19:33:23 | comments 0 | Log Emo blah Story

2007-07-13 记梦 没有超现实的东西，就是挺曲折费劲的；前面的记不得了， 刚搬进学校宿舍一个单间，出门去天津或哪里上辅导班，刚出门发现忘了什么东西，回来时隔壁宿舍人都在，东翻西看的，说有锁也能开开；其中一个较熟点，就对他说，帮看着点。 去车站买票，楼有点迷人的倾向，还是买了，车还没开，下午3点25的好像，不知去哪歇了会儿，还瞥眼瞧见一两个熟人（老乡的同学，喝过一两回酒，好久没来往的）。 后赶车，亲眼看着公车开走，跑步追，市集里面，公车也是绕圈路线，可我没认清车，半道追另一辆去了，后又折回路口等这个，原本围着转了几圈上了车边缘的板上（好像这辆公车是车厢搁在一个平板车上的），可没找到车门，甩在手里的车票人家看见了，似乎也不要。 又掉了下来，不知谁说，临时买个两块的票吧，方便点， 心中还是不干，看着车东折西拐的在市集中跑远；跑了几步，感觉到光着膀子，去了上辅导班也是有些不好意思，心下就有些懒了   现实联系：去了三回天津，都没赶上车，第一次打车卡在半路干脆没去，后来两次是赶到晚了，尤其上周一的那回，只差半分钟不让进了。我和天津有仇吗  ? 07:24:16 | comments 0 | Dream Log blah

2007-07-10 与子书 我叫你棨，字执殳，假如你五行正好缺木的话。 今晚小聚，我和你三个公司的伯父，陪离开的二老板吃喝。啤酒几瓶，说些人事掌故，心下有感 问你妈好，尽管我还不知道她在哪里和谁厮混或挂念着谁。我也自然不会想她 我喜欢的，或说终身爱着的，那个叫ruby的你的阿姨，呵呵，不知道是真人还是诗化虚构的，总之烙得很深，念得很久，终不可得--或你爹我终于没有实际的行动，于是渺如云雁，仰头的次数也愈渐少了 我该劝你进取奋发、自作聪明的与人争弈呢？ 还是疏略如你老爹，内方外圆、中庸缜密如你爷爷呢？ 我不知道，我不是个强势热切的人，你妈若热衷有心，你就循着或逆着她的心思长吧！ 我外逆内顺你奶奶有几年了 喔，今年为父桃花数朵，还没一枝正果；不知道你妈会不会下半年哐当砸下来  : ) 诸事还算顺当，你爹颟顸迂阔、自私率性，不知能走到哪部田地 ?!! 问你妈好 ,,  假如我不在了， 或和她置气分开了； 你吃好喝好， 信天任命即可，  嗬嗬，近来的顺口溜是： 天生万物，皆备于我；弱水三千，予取予夺 21:32:03 | comments 0 | Dream Log Emo blah

2007-07-01 白话疏译之《党员风采彪汉歌》 ----华子的一首公仆赞献给党的生日  Who is the happy Warrior? Who is he 谁是真的彪汉/猛士/猛汉/大虾/公仆/党员 That every man in arms should wish to be? 为勇者追慕效法 --It is the generous Spirit, who, when brought 是博大宽广的胸怀 Among the tasks of real life, hath wrought 指引他投身使命/革命   :) Upon the plan that pleased his boyish thought: 带着纯洁如孩童的心愿履行职责 Whose high endeavours are an inward light 他的高尚努力 使灵魂辉光四溢/熠熠生辉   生出灵光 That makes the path before him always bright; 前路茫茫也被照亮 Who, with a natural instinct to discern 他天生能洞察/洞悉/发现 What knowledge can perform, is diligent to learn; 格物致用的知识，从而学习掌握 Abides by this resolve, and stops not there, 笃守初衷，又不固步自封 But makes his moral being his prime care; 以德自律，谨慎修持 Who, doomed to go in company with Pain, 他注定辛苦长随 And Fear, and Bloodshed, miserable train! 经受恐惧与鲜血的苦难洗礼/锤炼 Turns his necessity to glorious gain; 以此为伟大功绩的必经之路 In face of these doth exercise a power 通过如下磨练出一种 Which is our human nature's highest dower: 凡人天赋能激发出来的最高能力/力量 Controls them and subdues, transmutes, bereaves 制衡、慑服、教化 Of their bad influence, and their good receives: 趋利避害，吐纳新陈 By objects, which might force the soul to abate 藉由这些， 尽管能使灵魂超脱于个人痒痛 Her feeling, rendered more compassionate; 对他人的慈悲之心却与日俱增 Is placable--because occasions rise 他是随遇而安的，外境风云变幻 So often that demand such sacrifice; 需要他安贫乐道，取舍自然 More skilful in self-knowledge, even more pure, 自省越多，人越纯粹 As tempted more; more able to endure, 源于诱惑磨练； As more exposed to suffering and distress; 承担与苦难越多， 越能平和忍耐 Thence, also, more alive to tenderness. 因此心思也愈加敏锐细密 --'Tis he whose law is reason; who depends 他做人理智明决 Upon that law as on the best of friends; 信任原则如同信赖挚友 Whence, in a state where men are tempted still 以此来主持公义、护卫真理 To evil for a guard against worse ill, 常能助人向善，远离邪恶 And what in quality or act is best 而世上的美德与真理 Doth seldom on a right foundation rest, 又常常不得其位，只在少数人的本性和行为中体现 He labours good on good to fix, and owes 他只有勉为其难，竭力维持 To virtue every triumph that he knows: 尽其所能的做些事情，并感念所完成和取得的 --Who, if he rise to station of command, 时来运转，当他手握权柄时 Rises by open means; and there will stand 他公正为心，坚持大义 On honourable terms, or else retire, 一旦渎昧失察，即请引咎辞职 And in himself possess his own desire; 他对自己的欲望控纵自如，调理得当 Who comprehends his trust, and to the same 他对自己的信念明辨深思，品其三味 Keeps faithful with a singleness of aim; 坚持哪怕孤独清高的志向，不渝不弃 And therefore does not stoop, nor lie in wait 也因此不肯折腰摧眉 For wealth, or honours, or for worldly state; 憧憬期待世俗的财富、名誉和地位 Whom they must follow; on whose head must fall, 只要他肯低头 Like showers of manna, if they come at all: 这些名利来的会何等的容易 Whose powers shed round him in the common strife, 他的光芒和能量庇佑着他，无论在战场 Or mild concerns of ordinary life, 或是日常的生活中 A constant influence, a peculiar grace; 那是一种持久不散的影响力，一种沁人心脾的德/党性芬芳 But who, if he be called upon to face 而当他终于被命运召唤 Some awful moment to which Heaven has joined 去面对和处理 Great issues, good or bad for human kind, 关系天下苍生的事务时 Is happy as a Lover; and attired 他心中乐得跟那啥 With sudden brightness, like a Man inspired; 整个人也抖擞精神，容光焕发 And, through the heat of conflict, keeps the law 在纷纭错杂的高压事态面前 In calmness made, and sees what he foresaw; 他沉着冷静，恪守一贯的原则，迎接和印证他的预见 Or if an unexpected call succeed, 如果预计失效 出现意外 Come when it will, is equal to the need: 则水来土掩，果敢的发挥急智，使情况恢复掌控 --He who, though thus endued as with a sense 他被赋予 And faculty for storm and turbulence, 临危受难 力挽狂澜 廓清寰宇的伟大能力 Is yet a Soul whose master-bias leans 而这个天之骄子/我主偏爱的灵魂 To homefelt pleasures and to gentle scenes; 总是（哪怕此时）心怀喜悦 悠然自适 温和仪雅 游刃有余 Sweet images! which, wheresoe'er he be, 美丽的情景和画面，无论他在哪里 Are at his heart; and such fidelity 都在心中眼前；就如同 It is his darling passion to approve; 他的忠诚和激情 永不衰歇 More brave for this, that he hath much to love:-- 越是勇猛刚健，他就拥有更多的热爱 'Tis, finally, the Man, who, lifted high, 总而言之、言而总之啊，这个彪悍无匹的guy喔 Conspicuous object in a Nation's eye, 或者高高站在新中国的华表上，为人仰慕 Or left unthought-of in obscurity,-- 或者遗世独立，韬光养晦 Who, with a toward or untoward lot, 他无论幸与不幸 Prosperous or adverse, to his wish or not-- 光宗耀祖、心想事成与否 Plays, in the many games of life, that one 在人生的这个游乐园里/他一生的诸多游戏中 Where what he most doth value must be won: 他所倾心关注的总能胜出 Whom neither shape of danger can dismay, 他既不为危险的幻象/纸老虎所触动慌张 Nor thought of tender happiness betray; 也不因一时的温柔幸福出卖灵魂/我党 Who, not content that former worth stand fast, 他不满于保持即有的功绩和美德/人气 ~ Looks forward, persevering to the last, 高瞻远瞩，奋争到底的不懈努力 From well to better, daily self-surpast: 从一般好到八荣八耻好地时时激励开拓，自我超越 Who, whether praise of him must walk the earth 他无论扬名百世 For ever, and to noble deeds give birth, 功业千秋 Or he must fall, to sleep without his fame, 还是籍籍无名   And leave a dead unprofitable name-- 不名一文的默默死去 Finds comfort in himself and in his cause; 他总是死的其所，心有慰藉，此生无憾 And, while the mortal mist is gathering, draws 而且当命数将尽时，他仿佛在残喘的 His breath in confidence of Heaven's applause: 呼吸之间听到静谧悠扬的天堂赞歌/马克思说: This is the happy Warrior; this is he 这人真彪悍啊，这人真牛叉 That every man in arms should wish to be. 大家都来学啊，雷锋就是他 ! 12:29:56 | comments 0 | cook Chef blah poem lazy

2007-07-01 金光流溢晨修版《侠之道》 胡为游侠子？天下咸与归 恪行犹倜傥，慨然任所当 大道从心远，神明路有光 天然别良莠，原道励自强 守节无歇处，修德如背芒 辛苦何足道？悲恐不能伤 天降大任者，荆棘冠尔王 艰难砺奇志，异禀天纵之 远征服四海，吐纳浊清扬 茹苦淡如素，仁心一帆张 泰然随蓬转，徙泊行拂乱 灵台勤拂拭，观照愈湛然 悲悯有情苦，难辞一铁肩 道义吾所恃，相托如死士 人心沉沦处，沧海横流时 此间匡扶事，沛然以御之 如蒙符绶招，出处偱公理 明心见吾性，深省善修持 富贵俯仰尔，白云不可期 仪态堪叔夜，容止侔药师 临崩不少变，幸遂平生志 焕然荣光发，施我屠龙技 蜩螗鼎沸事，恺悌弥纶之 权经应急变，决断去犹疑 青书为君写，从容解危局 河山方寸里，衷素襟怀前 奋勇缘惜爱，斯人独宵旰 或立庙堂上，或遗槽枥间 沙丘并龙泉，岂因舛逆迁 百年多博弈，智勇常胜还 苟得复患失，于我何加焉 ?! 汲汲不自足，厥为天下先 或因功名著，或卒世不显 瞑目安然去，旌铭天地知 斯乃真猛士，勇者追效之  listen:  ref: http://blog.sina.com.cn/u/49275b4201000aop http://lution.blog.sohu.com/52989107.html 08:08:56 | comments 1 | cook Chef blah poem

2007-06-29 Character Of The Happy Warrior 五言试译 Who is the happy Warrior? Who is he That every man in arms should wish to be? --It is the generous Spirit, who, when brought Among the tasks of real life, hath wrought Upon the plan that pleased his boyish thought: Whose high endeavours are an inward light That makes the path before him always bright; Who, with a natural instinct to discern What knowledge can perform, is diligent to learn; Abides by this resolve, and stops not there, But makes his moral being his prime care; Who, doomed to go in company with Pain, And Fear, and Bloodshed, miserable train! Turns his necessity to glorious gain; In face of these doth exercise a power Which is our human nature's highest dower: Controls them and subdues, transmutes, bereaves Of their bad influence, and their good receives: By objects, which might force the soul to abate Her feeling, rendered more compassionate; Is placable--because occasions rise So often that demand such sacrifice; More skilful in self-knowledge, even more pure, As tempted more; more able to endure, As more exposed to suffering and distress; Thence, also, more alive to tenderness. --'Tis he whose law is reason; who depends Upon that law as on the best of friends; Whence, in a state where men are tempted still To evil for a guard against worse ill, And what in quality or act is best Doth seldom on a right foundation rest, He labours good on good to fix, and owes To virtue every triumph that he knows: --Who, if he rise to station of command, Rises by open means; and there will stand On honourable terms, or else retire, And in himself possess his own desire; Who comprehends his trust, and to the same Keeps faithful with a singleness of aim; And therefore does not stoop, nor lie in wait For wealth, or honours, or for worldly state; Whom they must follow; on whose head must fall, Like showers of manna, if they come at all: Whose powers shed round him in the common strife, Or mild concerns of ordinary life, A constant influence, a peculiar grace; But who, if he be called upon to face Some awful moment to which Heaven has joined Great issues, good or bad for human kind, Is happy as a Lover; and attired With sudden brightness, like a Man inspired; And, through the heat of conflict, keeps the law In calmness made, and sees what he foresaw; Or if an unexpected call succeed, Come when it will, is equal to the need: --He who, though thus endued as with a sense And faculty for storm and turbulence, Is yet a Soul whose master-bias leans To homefelt pleasures and to gentle scenes; Sweet images! which, wheresoe'er he be, Are at his heart; and such fidelity It is his darling passion to approve; More brave for this, that he hath much to love:-- 'Tis, finally, the Man, who, lifted high, Conspicuous object in a Nation's eye, Or left unthought-of in obscurity,-- Who, with a toward or untoward lot, Prosperous or adverse, to his wish or not-- Plays, in the many games of life, that one Where what he most doth value must be won: Whom neither shape or danger can dismay, Nor thought of tender happiness betray; Who, not content that former worth stand fast, Looks forward, persevering to the last, From well to better, daily self-surpast: Who, whether praise of him must walk the earth For ever, and to noble deeds give birth, Or he must fall, to sleep without his fame, And leave a dead unprofitable name-- Finds comfort in himself and in his cause; And, while the mortal mist is gathering, draws His breath in confidence of Heaven's applause: This is the happy Warrior; this is he That every man in arms should wish to be.   胡为游侠子？天下咸归之 慨然任所当，恪行犹倜傥 大道从心远，神明路有光 天然别良莠，从善如流觞 守节无歇处，修德如背芒 辛苦何足道？悲恐不能伤 天降大任者，荆棘冠尔王 艰难砺奇志，异禀天纵之 远征服四海，吐纳浊清扬 己痛安如素，仁心一帆张 泰然随蓬转，徙舍略无怨 灵台勤拂拭，观照愈湛然 悲悯世间苦，难辞一铁肩 道义吾所恃，相托如死士 人心沉沦处，沧海横流时 此间匡扶事，沛然以御之 如蒙符绶招，出处偱公理 三省察愚昧，瞻鹄恒贯一 富贵仰俯尔，强项不阿世 仪态堪叔夜，容止侔药师 临崩不少变，幸遂平生志 焕然荣光发，施我屠龙技 蜩螗鼎沸事，恺悌弥纶之 鸿章久擘画，善断权不期 青书为君写，从容解危局 方寸遗胜景，诚笃养浩然 奋勇缘惜爱，斯人独宵旰 或立庙堂上，或遗槽隶间 沙丘与龙泉，未因舛逆迁 百年多博弈，智勇常胜还 无惧亦无求，风林与火山 汲汲每精益，兢兢永驱前 或因功名著，或卒世不显 瞑目安然去，旌铭天下知 斯乃真猛士，勇者追效之   盲评： Wordsworth 车轱辘嘴，一两个优点反复夸，时而文夫子，时而一肉屠的，也没看出描写的章法和妙处来，就是堆砌词汇，仿佛汉人辞赋，想起啥词儿用啥词儿 ~  有气无力的赞歌朗诵：   13:47:44 | comments 0 | Log thought Chef blah poem

2007-06-28 Valder Fields - Tamas Wells I was found on the ground by the fountain about a fields of a summer stride lying in the sun after I had tried lying in the sun by the side we all agreed that the council would end up three hours over time shoe laces were tied at the traffic lights I was running late, could apply for a not her one I guess after parking stores are best they said that there would be delays on the temporary pay. for a not her one I guess after parking stores are best they said that there would be delays on the temporary pay. 08:20:11 | comments 0 | Song LyricS Emo lazy

2007-06-18 昨天今天 盯了两三周，昨天下手败了个手机 多普达828的橘子版，即SPV M500, ￥2200， 标配（耳机，充电器，数据线）外加了一个电池、1G金士顿行卡、一个三星蓝牙耳机，一个覆膜 刷的是2003 SE中文版，昨天折腾覆膜，捣鼓的不咋地，回头还得再买个膜贴上 早睡，11点多就躺了；早起，7点整，把一堆袜子洗了，蹲了个点看了几页鲁迅批判，冲了个澡来上班 上午不觉得困乏，以为是早起忙活、思考的原因 ..   无事在伴着汉典和二十五史翻检陆游的诗选 16:43:35 | comments 0 | Log blah

2007-06-12 梦的影子 早晨又梦着你了，许是昨晚又折腾着挪了床的方向、睡得横七竖八时仰时趴的没沾枕头，我又梦着你了，起来几分钟后晃晃脑袋的悚然踩到梦的尾巴，缩脚弹开已是不及了 .. .. 至少一年了吧，今年又不同往年的觉得成熟和荒诞了些。去年的你已经不着痕迹，今早却满新鲜的。 大略是你和夫家新婚两三个月，来我们家窜门走亲戚。你是这个角色的1/3吧，因为起初是认作英语老师掺以某家亲戚（不是你就是你夫家）的，爸妈都在，喝水叙谈，忘了说些什么，只是我后来渐渐异样，从她的熟悉自然看出你的陌生异样来，于是你们告辞时，我惴惴茫然的想要跟着走。爸妈在，干不得啥事，走后问你们两口子住哪，妈说在县城的另一头儿，有个几层的小楼，很好找的。 然后我浑浑噩噩的出了门，想努力回想你刚才的模样、神态和是否对我有所暗示，我该如何找个理由去看你；仿佛走到了儿时玩耍的小塘边，看着水面下浅浅的浮藻漂荡，浮藻上似乎有蝌蚪般游走的字 . ... 08:58:27 | comments 2 | someday Emo Dream blah Log

2007-06-02 人间有味是穷折 又装了个vista，自称Ultimate的激活版；结果把原来的grub整没了，贸然用maxdos，结果vista和ubuntu都进不去了 于是郁闷的大嚼肘子出气，不急着用这个vista了，--并不觉得vista多好使，这个激活版似乎也是引导加了东西，怀疑双系统会比较困难； ghost恢复回2003，ubuntu废了，但早上作了备份，刚无聊把ubuntu的空间缩小了10来G，不知ghost恢复它好使不 .. http://www.douban.com/group/topic/1651080/ 终于知道为啥说起beryl都激动了，这个比vista那点外观的把戏好玩，明天没事折腾下   书来了，卓越真是好说话，有求必应，嚯嚯 ~ 18:42:19 | comments 0 | Log blah

2007-06-02 今晚 三瓶啤酒，和死党一大锅羊蝎子 笑称平生发小能几，胳膊你要拿去；他指我身后墙上，赫然一消防斧头斜挂，粗捍朴实，像是自家造的。 断臂之交，不外如此 ~ 后再酒，修正主义作祟，拍桌翘指，说一臂浮夸，二三指还是可以随时截了送你的 夜风吹雨，若有若无；呼嗨几声以抒气息；停车上楼，齐诵蜀道难，不想他比我熟，至少前几句，至少一人三瓶的情况下 呼儿将出换美酒，与尔同销万古愁 ! 十九人中君最少，二三子外我谁亲 ~ 看了加勒比和shrek3，而今横倒卧床矣 ... 01:12:58 | comments 0 | Log someday

2007-06-01 神呐，请赐予我思动、跃迁、蛙跳、飞行、跬步、瞬移和钉住时间的能力吧! 　　一个回头觉，睁眼8:39了！！要知道这可不是一个月以前的一年多，手机时间故意拨快了半个小时到四十分钟！！--nnd它真的39拉！ 　　 　　一个激灵，弓熊腰曲虎背翻身坐床，在不到一秒的时间里告诉自己这回怕是折了，捞回一秒是一秒吧 ~ 　　 　　想就着凉鞋就走，四有新人的纪律性告诫我不应如此大意，迟到了还穿着拖拉的，反复沉吟斟酌徘徊踯躅后，还是穿袜子换了鞋；洗把脸出门看表，8:42 　　 　　六楼，下来推车，一个翻身车把猛地一拐，差点蹭着一辆小car，稳定后，沉心凝神，发力狂飙--往常要骑车20分钟的，这回不管不顾一意冲刺了 　　 　　好在运气不差，有几个红绿灯都没耽搁，不是绿的就是红而不堵，一冲即过。 真正的问题是骑到半截时，瞪得过猛，咔嚓，车链子掉了，下车一看还是后面的小圈，用手轻转两下不听使唤，nnd一狠心上车硬来，咔嚓一下，好了！！ 再继续猛冲，在望见菜市口的大表是刚过8:50时，已经走了7成了，心下暗喜，再一发力，咯噔，又掉了，只好心急火燎的下车，左右扳扯，看之前超越的车手 从旁驰骋过，心下这个急啊，硬蹬两下还不好使，必须转到合适方位适合发力才成；第三下终于蹬上，两手黑黑，8指油污顾不得了。 　　 　　余下不赘，进楼56,签到58,没上回踩点踩的寸，一叹 ! 签了到直奔洗手间去污放水去了 ~ ~~ 09:22:03 | comments 0 | Log someday

2007-05-11 五一七天 1号下午迷笛，晚半夜回。 妖魔鬼怪，一通胡闹，怀疑三界交汇，六道杂流此间.. .. 2号依然没有上午，大半天泡茶看到半夜的是《1900》 ，看完写了个简评 3号憋得无聊买了A630，被放血，仿佛被大姨夫击面，鼻血长流；晚和曹、肥聚餐，乱拍肚脐 4号看完《逝去的武林》，搭手简评 5号和友人去豆瓣、798、糖果星光现场和簋街夜宵，好像到家一点多；嘻哈拍照不已 6号下午洗衣未完被召至崇文门三陪，半夜打车回，呼呼然 7号下午大洗，晚见人吃饭喝酒，一时畅快 08:58:52 | comments 0 | travelog Log someday lazy

2007-04-30 欢乐谷 和五姑娘及其同事，半天路上，玩一下午 主要排队等太阳神车了，低调的以为还会很怕，像04年去游乐园一样，没想到神经粗悍，狂爽一番；大略是排队无聊看手机《佛即是道》，正到周青和昆仑掌门乾机道人高空pk的情节，心向往之，五同学又说怕啥，除死无大事，so失重时水天翻覆，鼓腮长笑，凌空无主从而放肆欣喜了 拍了好多照片，她炫耀新买的DC，呵呵 回来阴雨，稍微折腾了几圈，还好，没大波折。 道心种魔 ？心中疑惑，业力驱使 ？ 肉身太浊重了些，在想如何修养的时时清明不浑，灵台湛然 .. 试着拒绝、疏离和舍弃，困守一隅找自己，置闲课简，夺舍归元 20:53:53 | comments 0 | thought Log someday travelog

2007-04-21 人间何地著疏狂 梦回酒醒忆平生 --- 磔王词 一山枫叶背残阳 高峡流云，人随飞鸟穿云去。数峰著雨。相对青无语 阅尽天涯离别苦，不道归来，零落花如许。花底相看无一语，绿窗春与天俱暮。待把相思灯下诉，一缕新欢，旧恨千千缕。最是人间留不住，朱颜辞镜花辞树。  西风林下，夕阳水际，独自寻诗去    ;  闲中心事，忙中情味，并入西楼雨。 人间事事不堪凭，但除却、无凭两字 画舫离筵乐未停，潇潇暮雨阖闾城。那堪还向曲中听。只恨当时形影密，不关今日别离轻。梦回酒醒忆平生。  呼灯且觅朱家去，痛饮屠苏  独向沧浪亭外路，六曲栏干，曲曲垂杨树。展尽鹅黄千万缕，月中并作濛濛雾。一片流云无觅处。云里疏星，不共云流去。闭置小窗真自误，人间夜色还如许  昨朝却走西山道，花事山中浑未了  手把齐纨相诀绝，懒祝西风，再使人间热  一晌低头犹送目  归路有余狂  北窗情味似枯禅  日长无事等匆匆 数峰和雨对斜阳  归来落月挂西窗  残夜小楼浑欲曙，四山积雪明如许。莫遣良辰闲过去，起瀹龙团，对雪烹肥羜。此景人间殊不负 杜鹃千里啼春晚，故国春心折。海门空阔月皑皑，依旧素车白马夜潮来。山川城郭都非故，恩怨须臾误。人间孤愤最难平，消得几回潮落又潮生。  旧人惟有何戡，玉宸宫调曾谙。肠断杜陵诗句，落花时节江南 跌宕歌词，纵横书卷，不与遣年华  只余眉样在人间 何处高楼无可醉，谁家红袖不相怜？人间那信有华颠。 小斋如舸，自许回旋可。聊复浮生，得此须臾我  自是浮生无可说  人间第一耽离别  掩卷平生有百端，饱更忧患转冥顽。偶听啼鴂怨春残。坐觉无何消白日，更缘随例弄丹铅。闲愁无分况清欢。 翠幕银灯春不浅，记得那时初见。眼波靥晕微流，尊前却按凉州。拚取一生肠断，消他几度回眸  更无人解忆长安  昨夜西窗残梦里，一霎幽欢，不似人间世  西窗白。纷纷凉月，一院丁香雪  人间争度渐长宵 ?     09:52:22 | comments 1 | Emo cook Quote poem

2007-04-16 宁锡扬三日春游流水 周四晚10点的车，周五一早到南京站进了大巴赶中山陵，中午和上海同事会合后进城吃饭，而后下午是总统府和夫子庙，元旦那回只小逛了夫子庙，这回搜刮的差不多了，在永和园小吃作为晚饭，回名商宾馆入住。晚无聊和光棍同事四个去看长江大桥，走的腿酸脚软的，当然，带家属一进房就“请勿打扰”的应该更累，:!; 周六一早六点半吃饭七点出发去无锡，直接去看灵山大佛了，我心里不恭敬，以为太近了，现代人声势浩大的造佛，真是为我等嗜古者不屑耳。大雄宝殿前又见毁容之人，短信问老刘为何这两日老碰到坏脸瞎眼者，彼谓菩萨也。心不虔敬，又一路昏沉的看《茅山后裔》，被整蛊掉队，错过了九龙灌浴的表演。午时随车去了太湖，临湖一船上吃饭，觉得太湖水浑涩了些。下午鼋头渚，可惜天阴若雨，景致一般。回市内晚饭喝酒，浏阳河52度大约5两，高兴，下的快；无错可犯，唯漫语多话耳 ~ 周日同样早起赶扬州，先去的何园，人多、一般，自吹晚清第一园，而后是瘦西湖，阳光明媚，景色也清亮，绕着这个护城河转了一大圈。午饭吃的不错，比无锡的水好，菜也不偏于甜软了。下午车停在文昌阁附近，自由游荡，按点集合。晚间车上继续茅山，波诡云谲恐怖惨烈，觉得名字改《镇魂歌》没准更好，手机没电，翻包改《80年代》催眠，远远的车厢那头一MM往这边眺望，我也频频回礼 .. 紧凑、劳累而兴致轻昂，拍了一些照片，最郁闷的南京头天晚上得了老刘的意外赠礼，哗哗哗哗的吖 ，酒壶烟嘴加一铜爵换了这个： 读史方輿纪要!   正好放一礼品盒里屁颠屁颠的抱了回来 ：~ ~~   09:06:23 | comments 0 |

2007-04-16 Lullaby -- Jack Johnson http://steven.boks.googlepages.com/Lullaby.mp3 When you're so lonely lying in bed Night's closed it's eyes but you can't rest your head Everyone's sleeping all through the house You wish you could dream but forgot to somehow Sing this lullaby to yourself Sing this lullaby to yourself And if you are waiting, waiting for me Know I'll be home soon darling I guarantee I'll be home Sunday just in one week Dry up your tears if you start to weep And sing this lullaby to yourself Sing this lullaby to yourself Lullaby, I'm not nearby Sing this lullaby to yourself Don't you cry, no don't you cry Sing this lullaby to yourself Cause when I arrive dear it won't be that long No it won't seem like anytime that I've been gone It ain't the first time it won't be the last Won't you remember these words to help the time pass? So when you're so lonely lying in bed Night's closed it's eyes but you can't rest your head Everyone's sleeping all through the house You wish you could dream but forgot to somehow Sing this lullaby to yourself Sing this lullaby to yourself Sing this lullaby, sing this lullaby Sing this lullaby to yourself 07:49:45 | comments 0 | Song Emo lazy

2007-04-10 蹲盗洞、啃茅山 继续半年前的盗墓笔记，听人劝又开始茅山后裔的追坑 盗墓笔记断点是秦岭，现到了长白山的云顶天宫；嗬嗬，联想半年前珠峰上几个老外被我边防士兵打靶的事，是不是他们也是国际倒斗协会的？ 珠峰那么高，算不算喜马拉雅的龙头啊。而松赞干布甚至更早的格萨尔王的陵寝，是不是正是everest整个山体（唐皇热衷山为陵）呢？ 而神出鬼没的雪人是不是他们的护陵者呢？  王玉德的《寻龙点穴》到手，可以参考下了   21:20:33 | comments 2 | Read thought Log

2007-04-08 游记 7点半早起蹲点洗澡，8:35出门，9:00与西西、nemo乘特3、402去中国电影博物馆，东北五环外，中午才到。超市买了吃喝，与二果会和，开始走马观花的逛博物馆，一二层看的细看的慢了，三层看不久就2点多nemo短信催，随后二果也电话催，说电影开场，我转了十几二十分钟楞是迷路了，9厅、10厅，港台电影，儿童影片啥的连在一起，就是曲折宛转，找不着出口。 迟到10分钟，布鲁斯的16 Blocks，挺好，短小精致的，willis演老警察护送证人出庭途中遭遇同事劫杀的事，他扮相老而跛腿，不够生猛，可以表现演技的机会也有限，怀疑是故事原型的；坏警察的良心发现？润发似乎演过一个唐人街的油条警的 而后去798豆瓣，比预想的简单空荡些，brant和xyb留守接待，随便聊了下，点清装好杯子，4人进厂游荡吃饭；没大逛，感觉一般，无非视觉刺激、混沌表达，可以说的云山雾罩、也可以说啥也不是，为了充艺术家脚掌也刺上“酸的馒头”云云 吃的还好，够辣，我和nemo各饮了一两自酿的白酒，入口甘甜的普通度数；nemo吃的快，上脸也快，呵呵，我等水煮牛肉留了一口，没啥后劲 来去路上，包里带了三本书，一本访谈活人的80年代，一本追述死人的当年游侠人，卓越前几日到的；主要看80年代的阿城和查建英对话，泛泛而谈，也没有特别限定80年代，阿城注意“知识结构”，看到谈王朔了 21:48:13 | comments 0 | Log travelog

2007-04-04 暖暖 http://www.rongshuxia.com/channels/zj/anni/anxiaoshuo/15.htm 散淡如城 清怜似暖 ， 安妮r的文字；呃，头回按浮心捏眼皮看了看，作孽了     ~ {  在这个熟悉的城市里，暖暖重新开始一个人的生活， 　　黄昏的时候，她常常一个人出去散步。沿着河边的小路，一直走到郊外的铁轨。那里有大片空旷的田野。暖暖有时坐在碎石子上面看远处漂泊的云朵，有时在茂 盛的草丛中走来走去，顺手摘下一朵紫色的雏菊插在自己的头发上。漆黑浓密的长发，已经象水一样地流淌在肩上。 　　她感觉到内心的沉寂。所有的往事都沉淀下来。偶尔的失眠的夜里，会看见城的脸，在地铁车站的最后一面，他搁着玻璃门对她挥了挥手，然后地铁呼啸着离去。空荡荡的站台上只有明亮的灯光。苍白地照在失血的心上。她独自在那里泪流满面。 }    00:43:49 | comments 3 | Log someday Story Emo

2007-03-18 为你年轻 -- The Gala sunday's coming i wanna drive my car to your apartment with present like a star forecaster said the weather may be rainy hard but i know the sun will shine for us oh lazy seagull fly me from the dark i dress my jeans and feed my monkey banana then i think my age how old,skyline how far or we need each other in california *you show me your body before night comes down i touch your face and promise to stay ever young on this ivory beach we kissed so long it seems that the passion's never gone *you sing me your melody and i feel so please i want you to want me to keep your dream together we'll run wild by a summer symphony this is what we enjoyed not a fantasy the tin-man's surfing i wanna try my luck to the top of tide rip like just have some drugs i know you have no blame for my proud moonish heart welcome to the golden beatnik park oh diamond seashore drag me from the yard incredible sunward i watch as you're in photograph for camera your smile's so sweet,palm trees' so lush would you believe my honey it's califonia sample link: http://bbs.hndt.com/UploadFile/2006-8/200682514451081446.mp3  23:40:31 | comments 0 | LyricS Song Emo someday

2007-03-10 顺流逆流 ^ by 徐小凤 曲／词：蔡国权 不知道在那天边可会有尽头 只知道逝去光阴不会再回头 每一串泪水伴每一个梦想 不知不觉全溜走 不经意在这圈中转到这年头 只感到在这圈中经过顺逆流 每颗冷酷眼光  共每声友善笑声 默然一一尝透 几多艰苦当天我默默接受 几多辛酸也未放手 故意挑剔今天我不在乎 只跟心中意愿去走 不相信未作牺牲竟先可拥有 只相信是靠双手找到我欲求 每一串汗水换每一个成就 从来得失我睇透 不经意在这圈中转到这年头 只感到在这圈中经过顺逆流 每颗冷酷眼光  共每声友善笑声 默然一一尝透 几多艰苦当天我默默接受 几多辛酸也未放手 故意挑剔今天我不在乎 只跟心中意愿去走 不相信未作牺牲竟先可拥有 只相信是靠双手找到我欲求 每一串汗水换每一个成就 从来得失我睇透 × 大好的天儿，起来扫除下 ， 呵呵 * 08:23:23 | comments 0 | Log LyricS Song

2007-03-09 妈妈 － 李志 还有什么能够盛开 你知道我一直很乖 我们的过去是一片稻田 还有什么值得期待 mama don't let me down mama go with the wind 蒲公英和炊烟都在等你 你的孩子一直很乖 mama don't let me down mama go with the wind 蒲公英和炊烟都在等你 你的孩子一直很乖 10:13:21 | comments 0 | LyricS Song Log

2007-02-18 大年初一 一早7点多被叫起来，爸爸已经点过炮了，洗脸刷牙，吃饺子。妈妈象征性的给了10块钱，早些年会和姐姐嘻嘻哈哈的磕个头，爸妈发20、50不等，这回姐姐不在这边了，连10块都不是崭新的票子，咳 ~ 鉴于没有赖床的姐姐拖后腿，这回我们家竟然是最先到奶奶家报到的，往年多是三叔家积极。爷爷奶奶生了四子一女，最小的姑姑也孩子小学了，自然婆家过年。我爸行二，他们四兄弟都是儿女一双，我姐和大大（大伯）家的堂姐已经嫁出，下午才能过来。照例到奶奶家磕头吃中午饭热闹一下，下午或麻将或各自游玩。 和爸爸积极的先行给爷爷奶奶磕头后，大大一家三口也过来了（住街对面，较近）；等了片刻三叔还不来（四叔就住奶奶屋子后院，无需叫，但没全起来，在催）爸爸和大大弟兄俩一合计，别耽搁串门拜年了，先进行起来吧，于是爸爸带我，堂哥带大大，各一辆摩托出发。  县里的拜年规则是这样的。有老人的大年初一放炮后敞开大门和正堂门，一般把先人的灵位（黑白照片为主）请出来摆在正堂或院落的供案上，前陈水果馒头，点上香等着。各家中年叔伯辈的带着青少辈的儿女（儿子为主、女儿终要出嫁嘛）去各房亲戚家串门拜年。去年父辈的有事，就我们小辈的4个代表着转了一圈磕头拜年。对象是奶奶家的兄妹们，6、7家，正好可以转县城一小圈回来。 规矩是这样的，见到供案、馒头或柱子（指香），就抱拳磕头三下，老人们侧身一旁，然后对着老人（按人计）拱拳磕头一下。有的或因年龄不大会让，但辈份所在，嘻笑着让站好跪下磕头。走了三家到第四家时三叔四叔带着他们的儿子赶上来，于是汇合了继续串门。照例寒暄和让吃些东西，聊两句近况，父辈还有引见介绍自己儿子的职责，我是在外打工，许多长辈不认的，跟在后面磕头挂笑，该叫啥叫啥。而老人家的中青年一辈儿也多半出去拜年了，于是老人在家等着流水的认得认不得的来磕头的晚辈们，常常是一堆人呼啦跪下，还没怎么辨认就风风火火的辞行离开了 爸爸过年通常点三挂炮，三十儿中午、大年初一凌晨、初一早晨，除了半夜的那个掐点，另两个配合着下饺子进行。饺子有时会故意包一两枚硬币，谁吃着谁有福。门联是分大小各门都有，院墙和大门对面也贴，三十儿中午点炮前贴上。 舅舅刚买了个三万多的QQ，爸爸快退休了，也盼着能有辆车，尽管没咋说，我是儿子，知道的；他今天竟然打了领带，外面毛领的袄，也显得不怎么招摇。中午妈妈看我喝的高兴，怕灌多了拉我出来，看了医院新分的房子，依然微微的诱惑我回来吧:)   14:49:38 | comments 0 | someday Log Story

2007-02-16 去舅舅家看姥姥 　妈买了一件红袄给姥姥,一路上忍不住埋怨爸爸重奶轻姥,我说:你们两口子的事,我不插话:) 　　 　　舅舅正上班,舅妈电话叫了,姥姥在二楼弄药做活,我和妈妈上去,我拉她手下来 　　 　　给姥姥一百,说工作了(我妈安排).客厅沙发拉手说话，姥姥穿上红袄，挺好；电视是还珠格格，姥姥能认出谁是皇帝，呵呵，她88快89了，除了耳聋，还是闲不住，找事情做 　　 　　过会儿舅舅回来，看他买的车；然后忍不住抽烟说话，舅妈表妹们上菜，和舅舅觥筹交错，推杯换盏，扳倒井38度，比昨晚在家和爸爸姐夫喝的“道 德人家”好喝，一瓶喝完，舅舅不耐烦电话催债（某公要还债，在他单位），趁着高兴，又拿烟又要表妹拿酒杯接了两杯药泡的酒，呵呵，这两口下来有些到劲了， 菜也吃的8899，妈妈和姥姥一个一杯（小盅）一个半杯应酬着，呵呵，舅舅说，“你敬你妈，我敬俺娘”，喝得心悦诚服，而后又电话催，他自不管，说些无党 无国的大实在话，看着差不多了，我和妈起身告辞，催他走和路上小心 　　 　　回来兴致不减，一路和老妈说秦城如何、你儿如何、党当初如何、如今怎样云云，到家爹地在看电视，倒茶叙暖，我虽迷瞪，问娘一路听进去没？ 娘说听得听得、在理在理，心慰上楼，写下这些文字 　　 　　喝口茶水，过会儿夹着秤盘找三儿絮叨去；约有两年没见了，这同志不知是否颟顸如初，不通事故而又自作聪明强作达人，不知他棋艺有长进没 ~ ~~ 15:38:48 | comments 1 | Log

2007-02-14 In Theory 情爱人镜观复述及发挥： 人人爱己，爱人譬如照镜，偶尔必要的饰物和pose。 人人有俄狄浦斯/伊赖克缀情结，直接影响你的异性审美/择偶标准；而所谓夫妻相，其实很可能是先长的相近（或像家族中某人的某个特征），而后建立好感和默契的。 爱人的能力是自信的证明，投入了是不自觉的推己念人，甚至自失忘我。 而心本圆满，苦在为了拼合“另一半”把大半个完整的自己消磨掉，两个圆拼凑成一个椭圆；年少时还好磨合，越是老大不肖、独心自裁，越是难以安于捆绑了 于是向往自由的恋爱/失恋、恋爱中依然的自由，可遇到怎样的缘分和性格，把握多少的度，又要谨慎的试探和良好的沟通、理解了。 不自觉的这么在分合得失中长大，越来越麻木现实，渐渐的强健和发现自己，走向莫须有的那个邂逅路口 ~ 2005-08-31 blog 总结 『 on 男女情事： 　　 　　爱情＝性爱＋感情。少年偏于感情，自苦于未得，得又困于珍惜，烦恼连连，终于以舍弃成就完美。情苦之后逆走极端，青年偏于情欲，已知此乃互戕折磨的濡 沫之乐，以忍心为不忍，用规则克制冲动，终于知道缘分的可恶与无奈；不作无谓妄想，遂心行走，耽享入狱前的自由自主。理想而言是适当比例的平衡，而比值视 性情、年龄、际遇区别 　　 　　以上范式是两年前情书所得，今有阐扬而无异议；再之前有镜子理论，有些形而上，以为人人自恋，寻伴儿不过是证明爱己，譬如照镜，见己而非己，每日比较异同为乐－－今无异议，无发挥，搁置待查。 』 《历史碎影》书评中的沈张模式分析： 『 --沈从文张兆和--可作夫妻相知相识相恋相守的一种典型模式吧 ! 即男方契而不舍、软磨硬泡终于因为混个脸熟不讨厌和舍得为自己付出而被女方（不得不）接受，呵呵，男方委曲求全、作了不少自己羞于启齿但情有可原、为了她 好的事情，即使半途在认识她的过程中发现了她的不是和与自己的隔阂分歧（性格性情、外在条件等），但箭已发出，众目睽睽、舆论滔滔、狼虎环伺、时不我待， 青春已然耗了许多，家里和生理的压力愈加迫切，就深吸一口气、修个正果吞了吧 ！ 果中滋味，酸甜自知，余生慢慢消化。而女方是一贯调教的知书达礼、温文娴静、少年时做着各样绚烂美好的梦和一系列待嫁的准备，终于被某男死缠上了，起初很 讨厌，和自己期望的白马想去万里－－譬如张兆和三小姐把她的追求者编成了青蛙一号、青蛙二号、青蛙三号，而乡人出身、一把年纪（但照片上长得还文质彬彬） 的沈从文被她二姐编排成了“癞蛤蟆第十三号”。但男方仗着脸皮厚、自卑情结重、初次发情的使命感和文艺情操+生理激素的鼓励，一味死缠、不即不离的如影随 形跟班，假如小姐这边没有家庭的支持、环绕四周又缺乏更好的选择，耗了一些年月，心态趋于保守想嫁，也就不作它想的从了－－至少心理上（安慰说）自己是对 方千辛万苦求来的宝，应该不会受苦吧。 　　 　　于是像本书作者流露的观感一样，我不觉得沈张开头是完美的、结尾是幸福的，沈求到了娇小姐，大约会快乐一阵子吧，但不能相知的相对，又会有几许的无奈 呢 ? 而假设另一种情况，先是同事好友亲戚般的相知相熟，某种契机撮合下结为夫妻，彼此知根知底的了解，这样岂不是更早的厌倦捆绑，向往新鲜的情缘？呵呵，我们 都是信命随缘的，一旦沾上了某种偶然，我们就情不自禁的去发挥冥冥之中的必然式期待：吞了缘的饵，咬中命的钩，戴上连体的枷锁，和不知是不是另一半的另一 半厮守磨合半生，完成生产和送葬的历史使命 ~ ~~ 』 13:45:31 | comments 0 | Log thought Emo someday

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2007-01-29 向往悠长假期 　　蓄须，留发髻，进正宗的技工学校学烹饪、修家电和裁缝，学会给自己理发和按摩（男子瑜珈:），学几样游戏，和自己玩看电影和看书的速度比赛 　　 　　还有作木工家具、摆弄乐器和背包闪游，呵呵 　　煮咖啡，去杭州看人采茶，去福建学习茶艺 ~ 　　学习游泳、骑马和射箭，拳击，太极， 园艺 ， okao ，针织（毛衣和绣花）也想了 ， 要不要变性换声？ 苦恼ing . .. 09:44:07 | comments 0 | Dream Log

2007-01-27 我看着寂寞长大 - 梅艳芳 寂寞得有点夸张 像正流行的衣裳 电台一放 情歌迷漫 许多人红了眼眶 自由得有点走样 像手上的方向盘 少了潇洒 多了不甘 忘了目的地在何方 我看著寂寞长大 开出了花 哀愁的芬芳已经满枝丫 沉默的微笑 希望还藏得住旧挣扎 我看著寂寞渲染 成一幅画 忧郁的留白填满生活上 我不想这样 但又怕爱回来敲我窗 --music-- 寂寞得有点夸张 像正流行的衣裳 电台一放 情歌迷漫 许多人红了眼眶 自由得有点走样 像手上的方向盘 少了潇洒 多了不甘 忘了目的地在何方 我看著寂寞长大 开出了花 哀愁的芬芳已经满枝丫 沉默的微笑 希望还藏得住旧挣扎 我看著寂寞渲染 成一幅画 忧郁的留白填满生活上 我不想这样 但又怕爱回来敲我窗 我看著寂寞长大 开出了花 哀愁的芬芳已经满枝丫 沉默的微笑 希望还藏得住旧挣扎 我看著寂寞渲染 成一幅画 忧郁的留白填满生活上 我不想这样 但又怕爱回来敲我窗 我不想这样 但又怕爱回来敲我窗 08:28:27 | comments 0 | LyricS Song

2007-01-25 重读少夫子徐晋如 个性与良知永远会纠缠着我这样的人，应该同样也更加纠缠着你。我感受着你的孤独，又只能看着你孤独下去，知道你是根本不需要安慰的，安慰于你是一种耻辱。 我尊重你。这世界于你太大了，又太小了。它太大，以至于你茫然四顾，不仅找不到一个同行者，甚至找不到一个忠实的听众。它太小，以至于你感觉自己被身边熙 熙的人群挤压得马上就要爆发，哪怕这爆发带来的只能是自我的毁灭。诚如钱理群先生所言知识分子总在堂吉诃德和哈姆莱特间徘徊。我为能够勇往直前的你祝福。 我甘愿在默默的沉思与祝福中老去。 http://xujinru.vip.sina.com/ftl.htm 14:15:26 | comments 0 | Quote Read thought Dream

2007-01-11 闷 & 盹r 闷着，打盹，昏沉不定的听着、辩着来回的光影和声音，游离他处 醒时一个激灵，温暖如水游漾，依然舒服，哦，大约要放水 有座不易，就忍耐着，半僵的木着当初舒服而今略有些不自在的姿势，茫然看人影的走动，困顿却再也催眠不了 努心的焦虑，短信还没回；内急如暗流倾泻，蠕动着加剧；死结! 就扯开了，听着还有两人，爽然起身去了洗手间 回来无座，乱踱漫觑，看广告和彩页 11、12月话费共计940多，比较平均；打了明细，回家反省 闷； 失败的恍惚， 生真是一个无聊无奈的选择，我妈当时没下手术台的话，我没准还是自由的游魂，收摄这光影繁华，游离于灵肉烦恼 15:54:14 | comments 2 | Log thought

2007-01-04 行迹 12.22 抵沪,南京路、外滩，中午和杰交接，下午看了加勒比2，满意，晚送杰归 12.23 聚头，徐汇，公园滥拍，晚苏武牧羊火锅喧闹一时，后陆家嘴星巴克小侃至午夜，薄醉回，以为圣诞夜 12.24 三水、肉丝风波庒倒酒倾盖，下午kfc续谈，晚三水带吃罐罐鸡，甚欢，送吾返京 01.01 抵宁，牛腩鸭血、新街口、夫子庙、江南贡院，天阴人繁，多足晚归 01.02 抵苏，看《谈判专家》数集，蕉叶对食，大光明伤城、面纱，后者打盹，错过许多 01.03 天人交战，败北；已然知足，随缘行止 12:36:36 | comments 0 | travelog Emo

2006-12-19 富士山下 -- 陈奕迅 拦路雨偏似雪花 饮泣的你冻吗？ 这风褛我给你磨到有襟花 连调了职也不怕 怎么始终牵挂 苦心选中今天想车你回家 原谅我不再送花 伤口应要结疤 花瓣铺满心里坟场才害怕 如若你非我不嫁 彼此终必火化 一生一世等一天需要代价 ～谁都只得那双手 靠拥抱亦难任你拥有 要拥有必先懂失去怎接受 曾沿着雪路浪游 为何为好事泪流 谁能凭爱意要富士山私有 何不把悲哀感觉假设是来自你虚构 试管里找不到它染污眼眸 前尘硬化像石头 随缘的抛下便逃走 我决不罕有 往街里绕过一周 我便化乌有～ 情人节不要说穿 只敢抚你发端 这种姿态可会令你更心酸 留在汽车里取暖 应该怎么规劝 怎么可以将手腕忍痛划损 人活到几岁算短 失恋只有更短 归家需要几里路谁能预算 忘掉我跟你恩怨 樱花开了几转 东京之旅一早比一世遥远 ～～×2 你还嫌不够 我把这陈年风褛 送赠你解咒 17:01:00 | comments 0 | LyricS Song

2006-12-19 FAR AWAY -- NickelBack This time, This place Misused, Mistakes Too long, Too late Who was I to make you wait Just one chance Just one breath Just in case there's just one left 'Cause you know, you know, you know [CHORUS] That I love you I have loved you all along And I miss you Been far away for far too long I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore On my knees, I'll ask Last chance for one last dance 'Cause with you, I'd withstand All of hell to hold your hand I'd give it all I'd give for us Give anything but I won't give up 'Cause you know, you know, you know [CHORUS] So far away Been far away for far too long So far away Been far away for far too long But you know, you know, you know I wanted I wanted you to stay 'Cause I needed I need to hear you say That I love you I have loved you all along And I forgive you For being away for far too long So keep breathing 'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore Believe it Hold on to me and, never let me go Keep breathing 'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore Believe it Hold on to me and, never let me go Keep breathing Hold on to me and, never let me go Keep breathing Hold on to me and, never let me go 10:34:50 | comments 0 | LyricS Song Log

2006-12-18 No Man's Land -- Sufjan Stevens ##heard from little miss sunshine Up in the highest of heights O'Hara blinks and fights This land is yours; this land is mine. I see the Captain in red, and Cairo at his head. This land is yours; this land is mine. The lightning over the park, the waters--brash and dark We take a swim; we take a swim. I never meant to escape the carpet and the trade This land is yours; this land is mine. And when I make up my mind I change it all the time I take it back; I take it back. The numbers over the dam, Jo Davies and the band, I count them out; I count them out. There was a car in the bay by the boat that swept and swayed Whoever you are in the light in the water that we made I'm counting it out I'm counting it out I'm working it out inside I'm counting it out to the floor The ferry hatches Moline Panola Beauty Queen She takes a bow; she takes a bow. In Charles, we climb the hill and Danville window sill I take it back; I take it back. My sister she counts the bars, the Macon county cars, She takes a bow; she takes a bow. The Mississippi amends the Carver and the bends This land is yours; this land is mine. My brother punches my ear. The injured ivory deer I call my dad; I call my dad. We skip inside of the store the Mason winter door This land is yours; this land is mine. There was a car in the bay by the boat that swept and swayed Whoever you are in the light in the water that we made I'm holding your hand by the shore With our collars pulled up tight I'm counting it out I'm counting it out I'm working it out inside I'm counting it out (This land is not your land For the right hand takes what it can, ransacks with the mad man. For this land is not yours or mine to have. This land was made for the good of itself.) 11:53:48 | comments 0 | LyricS Song Log

2006-12-15 三国恋 -- tank 　　将军北方仓粮占据 　　六马十二兵等待你光临 　　胡琴诉说英勇事迹 　　败军向南远北方离 　　家乡在那美的远方 　　期望在身上梦想在流浪 　　肩上剩下的能量 　　还能撑到什么地方 　　（邪声）等待良人归来那一刻 　　眼泪为你唱歌 　　（发情）在我离你远去哪一天 　　蓝色的雨下在我眼前 　　骄傲的泪不敢润湿我眼睛 　　在我离你远去哪一天 　　灰色的梦睡在我身边 　　我早就该习惯没有你的夜 　　勇敢的面对 　　 　　赤壁烽火连天战役 　　只挂掉我们七万个兄弟 　　长江水面写日记 　　愿你也能看见涟漪 　　家乡在那美的远方 　　泪水背着光安静而悲伤 　　肩上剩下的能量 　　还能撑到什么地方 　　等待良人归来那一刻 　　眼泪为你唱歌 　　在我离你远去哪一天 　　蓝色的雨下在我眼前 　　骄傲的泪不敢润湿我眼睛 　　在我离你远去哪一天 　　灰色的梦睡在我身边 　　我早就该习惯没有你的夜 　　勇敢的面对 　　我试着面对灰色的夜还在眼前 　　等待良人归来那一刻 　　眼泪为你唱歌 　　在我离你远去哪一天 　　蓝色的雨下在我眼前 　　骄傲的泪不敢润湿我眼睛 　　在我离你远去哪一天 　　灰色的梦睡在我身边 　　我早就该习惯没有你的夜 　　勇敢的面对 15:12:19 | comments 0 | LyricS Song

2006-12-15 卡奇社 site: http://www.erock.cn/carrchy/ ～日光倾城～ 　　 从一个高的地方去远方　 　　 从低处回家稍纵即逝的快乐 　　 转动的车轮它载着我　 　　 偶然遇见月光倾泻的苍白色 　　 　　 彩色的路标 禁止通行的警告　 　　 天空之下 我们轻得像羽毛　 　　 双眼是盲目的最佳玩伴　 　　 还是选择了不选择的旅途 　　 　　 观看了一颗流星坠毁了 　　 所有的人会为此而难过　 　　 抱怨这城市日光太曲折　 　　 只有日光还唱歌 　　 　 　 明媚的角落反射着光芒　 　　 蝴蝶飞过城市高楼开出了花 　　 被它唤醒的生命短暂一瞬　 　　 偶然丢失的彩色化作了粉末 　 　 　　 彩色的路标 禁止通行的警告　 　　 天空之下 我们轻得羽毛 　　 双眼是盲目的最佳玩伴 　　 还是选择了不选择的旅途 　　 　　 #观看了一颗流星坠毁了 　　 所有的人会为此而难过　 　　 抱怨这城市日光太曲折　 　　 只有日光还唱歌 # 　　 #repeat 4 times ---------------------------------------------------------------------- ～游园惊梦～ 　　 　　 原来是姹紫嫣红 　　 氤氲朦胧 　　 如沐春风 　　 分明是良辰美景 　　 在我口中 　　 一说成空 　　 赏心乐事谁家院 　　 朝飞暮卷 　　 烟波画船 　　 满愿春色关不住 　　 冥冥之中 　　 却随去路中 　　 　　 剪不断 　　 理还乱 　　 闷无端 　　 宿妆残 　　 似这般 　　 都付 　　 奈何天~ 13:33:04 | comments 0 | LyricS Song Log

2006-12-15 Remember The Name -- FORT MINOR [Intro] You ready?! Lets go! Yeah, for those of you that want to know what we're all about It's like this y'all (c'mon!) [Chorus - Mike Shinoda] This is 10% luck, 20% skill, 15% concentrated power of will, 5% pleasure, 50% pain, And 100% reason to remember the name! Mike! [Mike] Mike, He doesn't need his name up in lights He just wants to be heard whether it's the beat or the mic He feels so unlike everybody else- alone In spite of the fact that some people still think that they know him But fuck em, he knows the code It's not about the salary It's all about reality and making some noise Makin' the story - makin sure his clique stays up That means when he puts it down Tak's pickin it up! let's go! [Tak] Who the hell is he anyway? He never really talks much Never concerned with status but still leavin them star struck Humbled through opportunities given to him despite the fact That many misjudge him because he makes a livin from writin raps Put it together himself, now the picture connects Never askin for someone's help (help), to get some respect He's only focused on what he wrote, his will is beyond reach And now it all unfolds, the skill of an artist [Ryu] It's just 20% skill 80% beer, Be a 100% clear cause Ryu is ill Who would've thought he'd be the one to set the west in flames And I heard him wreckin with The Crystal Method, "Name Of The Game" Came back dropped Megadef, took 'em to church I like bleach, man, why you had the stupidest verse? This dude is the truth, now everybody givin him guest spots His stock's through the roof, I heard he fuckin with S. Dot! [Chorus - Mike Shinoda] This is 10% luck, 20% skill, 15% concentrated power of will, 5% pleasure, 50% pain, And 100% reason to remember the name! [Ryu] They call him Ryu The Sick And he's spittin fire and Mike Got him out the dryer he's hot Found him in Fort Minor with Tak Been a fuckin annihilist porcupine He's a prick, he's a cock The type woman want to be with, and rappers hope he get shot Eight years in the makin, patiently waitin to blow Now the record with Shinoda's takin over the globe He's got a partner in crime, his shit is equally dope You wont believe the kind of shit that comes out of this kid's throat! Tak! [Tak] He's not your everyday on the block He knows how to work with what he's got Makin his way to the top He often thinks its a common artist's name People keep askin him was it given at birth Or does it stand for an acronym? No, he's livin proof, Got him rockin' the booth He'll get you buzzin quicker than a shot of vodka with juice (juice) Him and his crew are known around as one of the best Dedicated to what they do and give 100% [Mike] Forget Mike, Nobody really knows how or why he works so hard It seems like he's never got time Because he writes every note and he writes every line And I've seen him at work when that light goes on in his mind It's like a design is written in his head every time Before he even touches a key or speaks in a rhyme And those motherfuckers he runs with, those kids that he signed? Ridiculous, without even trying, how do they do it?! [Chorus - Mike Shinoda] This is 10% luck, 20% skill, 15% concentrated power of will, 5% pleasure, 50% pain, And 100% reason to remember the name! This is 10% luck, 20% skill, 15% concentrated power of will, 5% pleasure, 50% pain, And 100% reason to remember the name! [Outro - Mike Shinoda] Yeah! Fort Minor M. Shinoda Styles of Beyond - Ryu! Takbir! Machine Shop! 10:26:57 | comments 0 | LyricS Song

2006-12-13 说说自己的故事 -- 林一峰 找 寻找我下个 偶然午夜时份感到落泊 切记单身 从来不等于寂寞 换个心情 躲到闹市 吃和喝尽人事 齐声大笑 放肆一点 遗忘一点 都不错 说说自己的故事 疗伤的好法子 还有意没意改编了历史 努力查探有没有好对象 难放过每一张脸 才发觉自己都不够专一 真有点讽刺 酒 能释放自我 期待快将身份放开 仍很自觉 四处打听那里还有更好的一个 说说自己的故事 疗伤的好法子 还有意没意改编了历史 努力查探有没有好对象 难放过每一张脸 才发觉自己都不够专一 真有点讽刺 烦人道理不需多说 世界定有更伤心故事 能继续笑 此刻我还好 齐来说说大家的故事 提起他沉默不语 我信有办法解开这心结 不得不了 路尚遥远 让我找寻新故事  11:26:15 | comments 0 | LyricS Emo

2006-12-13 Orange Sky -- Alexi Murdoch Well I had a dream I stood beneath an orange sky Yes I had a dream I stood beneath an orange sky With my brother standing by With my brother standing by I said Brother, you know you know It’s a long road we’ve been walking on Brother you know it is you know it is Such a long road we’ve been walking on And I had a dream I stood beneath an orange sky With my sister standing by With my sister standing by I said Sister, here is what I know now Here is what I know now Goes like this.. In your love, my salvation lies In your love, my salvation lies In your love, my salvation lies In your love, in your love, in your love But sister you know I’m so weary And you know sister My hearts been broken Sometimes, sometimes My mind is too strong to carry on Too strong to carry on When I am alone When I’ve thrown off the weight of this crazy stone When I've lost all care for the things I own That's when I miss you, that's when I miss you, that's when I miss you You who are my home You who are my home And here is what I know now Here is what I know now Goes like this.. In your love, my salvation lies In your love, my salvation lies In your love, my salvation lies In your love, my salvation lies In your love, my salvation lies In your love, my salvation lies In your love, my salvation lies In your love, in your love, in your love Well I had a dream I stood beneath an orange sky Yes I had a dream I stood beneath an orange sky With my brother and my sister standing by With my brother and my sister standing by With my brother and my sister standing by 10:30:32 | comments 0 | LyricS

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